passive aggressive bullshit

Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, never the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…

Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this…you’re better off this…
Maybe you’re better off!

Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way

Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!

so i'm listening to this song, and it brings me reeling back to a definitive moment in time where i was betrayed by someone. betrayed for no particular reason, and not because of anything i've done. i'm no victim, be assured; neither are they. but for some reason, this song made me angry. i think because there are a few of us out there who have no answers, and all questions. and the person who could answer them is too much of a fucking pussy to answer them honestly, and would rather skulk around in the background, trying to continue to stir the pot and play the victim.

it pisses me off that someone i am supposed to be loyal to the death for would throw me away for a stupid lie; for a facade. that they would do the same to a friend. it's the inequity of it that bothers me, not so much that it happened directly to me. just that it happened, and for no apparent reason.


go ahead and play dead.

you fucking disappoint me.
passive aggressive bullshit.